What I have found in my Christian Journey with Abba Father is that one of the ways He often speaks to me is through dreams. So much so that I have dream journals where I write them down because of the much needed warnings, or important instructions from the Holy Spirit that are sent through these dreams. Recently, I had a very significant dream that seemed to serve as both a warning, as well as a revelation; both of things that hinder the immediate reaction of believers’ to the Holy Spirit’s initial instruction.
I was in a classroom setting with peers, with a blank sheet of paper in front of me, and the teacher began to tell us what to draw. He first instructed us to draw a girl, inside of a sailboat, with birds, etc. and the instruction continued as we drew exactly what he told us to, as he was telling us. Once He was done, He told us to look at our papers; when I was done, I laughed because I was really impressed with the way it turned out, so much so, that I decided to show my friends/peers. But when I showed them they scoffed and questioned saying, “why did you draw it like that? Why are the birds black? Why is it so close together?”, so on and so forth. After hearing these comments and opinions, my countenance fell, and my view changed as I began to see the “flaws” in it and how crazy it probably did look.
So I threw the picture away, and began to look around the classroom for a new sheet of paper to start over. When I turned around in my seat, I saw plenty of empty chairs at other tables with blank sheets of paper from people who didn’t come; and from a far those papers looked clean. But overtime I approached one to grab, I realized that it was stained, or dirty and torn. After looking in frustration, I finally found one that was clean… but a piece of it had been ripped off the bottom. So i took it and began to redraw what I remembered from the teacher’s instruction, but this time, I was focusing on the wrong things (the girl, how long/what color her hair was, etc.) to the point that I kept erasing and redrawing, erasing and redrawing; ultimately trying to make it look as good as possible.
Time passed, and as I had just started the coloring process of my picture, yet still making changes, the teacher called out that it was time to turn in our drawings. I began to panic because I realized that if I had f just stuck with the first one, I’d be done already, and it would have looked beautiful. So as I looked around the classroom, I saw that there were still a few stragglers that were trying to finish theres up too, so I had hope; but what initially began as a one-by-one presentation turned into being called up in mass groups, and even still, my work was not finished.
This dream hit me like a ton of bricks because while thankful for the Holy Spirit’s revelation, it convicted me so heavily. We as believers are to listen to our Abba Father’s instructions the first time, blindly (by faith), doing exactly what He instructs us to do; and while it may seem or look crazy, we are still to do it in obedience to Him. However, when we allow the tainted (stained, torn, fallen) opinions and judgements of others into our minds and hearts concerning our path, or what God told us to do, it can cause us to question the very thing we heard from God. “Was that really God speaking?” “Do I look crazy?” “Why did I choose to do this??” Before we know it, doubt and fear have settled in; causing us to change, and try to recreate God’s instructions for us into a presentation that is pleasing to man/makes man comfortable, or worse… completely removes Him from the equation.
When putting our own spin on things, it causes us to then rely on our own intellect more than God’s Word. It causes us to paint our own/the world’s fallen perception of what God told us to do, versus what He really said.
So my question to you is, what are some areas that maybe God has spoken to you about, or given you instructions to do that have been thrown away or cast to the side due to fear or doubt caused by the opinions of man? No matter what it may look like or sound like to others, we should always choose obedience to the Jesus Christ vs. the opinion of man. In Matthew 4:18-22, when Jesus called Simon-Peter and Andrew to follow Him as His disciples, they didn’t get a second opinion… they immediately left their boat, dropped their nets and followed Jesus! We are called to do the same; and though it won’t always be easy, we can definitely rest assured that the story will be one of purpose and beauty; all working together for our good as Romans 8:28 promises those that, “love the Lord, and are called according to His purpose.”